do I blame white people for wanting that their kids go to college? no
do I blame URMs for demanding that their kids also have the ability to go to college? no
what I find problematic is the fact that race and politics have so much sway in the education system when to me, it had always been presented as the one part of life where merit and hard work were finally going to make a difference
I’ll never understand why setting up higher education quotas is healthier for America than trying to improve education and quality of life right from k-12 up for underserved communities. I’ll never understand why race needs to be a factor when there are endless standardized assessments (and “standardized” meaning, I assume, designed and calibrated so that everybody has a fair enough chance of achieving well), report cards, rec letters, and personal essays that could allow everyone to present their best selves.
I’ve seen criticisms that “Asians” are too test- and grade-oriented, but to me, those were the most straightforward and honest parts of a college app. And I thought that was what school was about - learning and proving to others that you did. How does a 4.0 reduce you to being narrow-minded, bookish, or uninvolved in your community? Your test scores and your grades are a reflection of how much work you’re willing to put in. People say oh, rich kids get to go posh test-prep classes and do better. But honestly, most of the kids who feel the need to drop 3k on a SAT prep class are not going to be your competition if you study hard.
People say middle-class Asians are just more privileged because their parents have high-income jobs, they go to better schools, and they have more resources to do better. And all this is true, but you need to understand the bigger picture.
Most of our parents struggled from the ground up to get out of their little villages back in China or Pakistan and educate themselves, carve out a future for themselves in an overpopulated, extremely competitive, underdeveloped country. They worked for their right to come to America, they drilled it into their kids that to succeed is to survive. They come from countries where scores are the only thing that mattered because the schools were not plush enough to cultivate “creative thinkers” when engineers were sorely needed. They told their kids, don’t let your cute lil suburban California life fool you - we came here for a reason, and you need to push yourself. Maybe their idea of success was limited by their background, but these so-called privileged minorities come from families that fought for their high-income, high-tech jobs, worked hard for their right to live in a ridiculously inflated property-value neighborhood and send their kids to well-known schools.
That is the big picture, and that is why discrimination against ORMs is so wrong and so unfair to me even despite our readily obvious material privileges.
When I walked into the lobby this morning running about 15 minutes late, I ran into two other people in my class of 12 and we all laughed at each other. They went to class. I went to the dining hall for breakfast.
Got my ass handed to me by my math midterm. In the middle of it, I actually thought, “What if I just fainted right now? Would my teacher let me get out of this test and make it up another time?” I didn’t do that.
My dress is officially RUINED. It’s all twisted and asymmetrical now because of the direction of the fibers in the fabric or something. I ruined another shirt a couple years ago because it got all twisted like this too. At least I got it on sale…
I complained to Jiwoo about it and he said “The clothes don’t matter, it’s the one who wears it,” and that was nice.
Pretty boring night so I cleaned all the salt off my shoes and did the dishes and straightened up my desk.